May 4

1967, London

[Orton had offered to pose nude for the fashionable portrait painter, Patrick Proctor.] I wanted to piss very badly, but I didn’t go because wanting to piss makes my cock swell up and if I went to piss I might be so nervous of taking my clothes off that it might shrink and that would expose me to the disgrace of not looking as though I had a decent-sized cock. After I’d drunk my tea I took my clothes off, and my cock was rather large. So I felt pleased. I remembered the librium I’d taken and thought it might be that too. I sat on the bed and he drew me. Then we talked a little more. And he drew me lying on the bed. I kept my socks on, nothing else. I kept my socks on because I think they’re sexy. “I’ve drawn you looking like a beautiful teenager,” P. Proctor said. “You’ll get a lot of kinky letters after this, I’m sure.”..